Philippians 1:6 - “being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;”
My first blog entry. Wow! I’ve thought about how to do this for so long. I knew I was going to, but about how and what was a mystery to me. I couldn’t figure out how to begin, or where to begin. Those that know me already know I spend a lot of time in my own head, continuously studying , welding, and disregarding thoughts. So, thinking about this blog and what I want to do took a lot of time. And I’m not so sure how to begin or where it will go.
And while constructing thoughts to study and weld, a stray one flew by me just slow enough to notice. I thought, kinda like your life, huh. Yeah, that’s true. Which led to more thoughts. I thought about how I pictured my life when I was just a kid, and how different my life was. I thought about high school, college, and afterward. I thought about how I’m not using my degree anymore. I thought about how I got into this job that I say I love but am ready to leave on some level. I thought about how I’m not married with kids like my friends, or how I thought I’d be long before now. I even thought to myself, how did I end up here, in Rome, Georgia, of all places. Not that I mind. I mean, I love Rome. So, how did it end up so different?
All that struck me as odd. I’m a planner. Sure, some things seem to be on the fly because either I can process my thoughts quickly or it just comes natural from experience. But most of the time, either quickly or over time, I plan. So the fact that things didn’t turn out as planned puzzles me, and kinda bothers me a little.
So then I asked myself if I was happy where I’m at. In the past that was a very tough question. Ten, or even five years ago I would have said no, but it is what it is. But now? Yeah.
But I planned it differently and it didn’t turn out that way. What’s up with that? Sometimes, I guess, things don’t turn out as planned. Yeah that’s true I guess. But how am I ok with where I’m at now when I wasn’t before.
That’s when I thought about Philippians 1:6. Though my early years of life were spent in church and loving God, my young adult years were spent opposite: prodigal. Which, it turns out, is the same time I was unhappy. It’s true for my life at least. I found I wanted more things, more money, more of whatever and there was never enough. I heard a comedian once say people who say money can’t by happiness never owned a jet ski. You ever seen someone unhappy on a jet ski? And I took it to heart. Now I’d ask, but can that jet ski hug you back?
Now, I’m back to loving my Lord. He is great. More than great. There’s not a word to describe how I feel really. But I’m still not where I thought I wanted to be. But I don’t want those things anymore. It’s true. And it wasn’t by my design. I find myself throwing so much away when I move. I don’t keep full shelves of stuff and trinkets I buy. I don’t own a home. I barely own a car. And thanks to an awesome roommate I’m able to finally start saving. So I don’t have a lot, don’t get a lot, and my friends will tell you I work so much they sometimes go days without seeing me unless they come to work. So why does that make me happy.
Well first, I gave my life to Christ. And I realize now it isn’t mine to do with, and I’m utterly ok with that. He provides me with what I need. And He has given me what I want, Him. And yeah, I’m happy with where I am, but I’m not content to stay here. I want more. I want to grow. And there’s the fun part.
I know Paul was talking to the Philippians, but he’s talking to all of us who are faithful and seek Jesus. And right now, to me. He is “confident” that He who has begun a good work in me will finish it. So where I am is not where I will be. After all, he created the heavens and earth, and all the amazingness that came along with it. So just imagine what he can create in me, or anyone faithful to Him. Plus, he’s not done. If he made all those heavens and earth in just six days, I can’t fathom just how much he can do with the YEARS of my life he has. And Paul is confident in that. He knows God will do what He says He will. So the question of whether I am happy or not now is currently irrelevant, though I am because as I said I have what I want (Christ). I am more happy, excited, and very curious to see where I will go. Where we all will go.
I hope others figure that out, too. And more than that, I hope I get to do it with them. First blog done. For someone not sure what to say I sure was wordy. Thanks for reading.